GIVING UP IS EASY TO DO BY JEFFREY LO (DOWNLOAD PDF HERE)
BRYANT:
You know, something happened to me today.
Something I found to be quite surprising, honestly.
I gave up today.
That’s not the thing that happened to me – actually – I’ll get to that.
But yes, today I gave up.
On my dreams.
On my expectations.
On my desires.
I gave up on it.
I gave up on it and decided that I was just going to try and…
Live.
Just live without wants.
Live without aspirations.
And if that sounds sad to you it did to me too.
Which is why it took me so long to decide to up and do it.
…
But here’s the thing.
Once I did it.
Once I made that decision.
Once I made the decision to give up and I put myself in that mental state –
I realized.
It wasn’t sad.
It wasn’t this depressing state of mind.
This pathetic moment of my life that I was running away from.
Quite the opposite.
It was a moment where I opened my eyes.
A moment where I grew.
Grew up.
Grew up into a human being with understanding.
I say this because when I gave up on what I thoughtI was supposed to be.
And what I thoughtI was supposed to do.
And what I thoughtI wanted.
When I let that go…
I was able to actually see myself.
And when I saw myself.
Really.
Really saw myself.
…
I smiled.
Because goddamnit…
I’m not so bad.
And I can live with that.
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